New home and 4 month shots :(

So, today I moved our posts from her old blog to this one. I like the templates here a lot better.

I also like the connectivity a lot. (Facebook, twitter etc..)

Anyways, Lora had her 4 month shots today. I have been nervous since yesterday, cause I remember when she had her 2 month shots, she wasn't very happy at all. She cried the whole day, not the "hungry cry" or the "I am tired cry", no she cried the " I am in pain and I feel like poop cry".

Thank god Brad was going with me this morning. Last time I started crying in the doctors office when she got her shots. At least now I would have mental support!

Her check up went great! She weighs 14.7 lbs and is 24 inches tall. The doctor said she is bigger than 75% of girls of her age, but that was nothing to worry about. He said i did a good job feeding her. I have been breast feeding her since the day she was born and we're still going strong. My plan is to keep it up until she is at least 1 year old. The doctor also told us that we should give her breast milk only until she is 6 months old. Apparently if you start giving babies solid food now, they have an increased risk for allergies. So breast milk it is!

Now the hard part, the doctor left and the nurse came in. Instead of 3 shots, Lora was getting 2 shots today. 2 shots in the same leg. I started to get nervous and had to put Lora on the bed. The nurse asked me to hold her down, but I only held Lora's hand. I did not want to hold my daughter down against her will. It makes me feel as if I done this to her on purpose. When she got her second shot, she lifted up her head and looked at her leg. She gave a very loud scream and it was over by then. She cried even harder and my throat started closing. I felt so horrible for my little girl. Poor baby :(.

I picked her up and held her close to me while she was crying and she grabbed my shirt. I walked around with her trying to soothe her, but nothing helped. I quickly put her back on the table, changed her diaper, dressed her and we walked out. I kept her in my arms, as I did not want to lay her in her carrier. Outside the doctors office we put her in her carrier and carried her to the car. By the time we reached the car, she was sleeping.

We had to go to Walmart quick as we had to pick up a few things, but we did not have the stroller with us. I decided to carry her in the Snugli and she was so quiet the whole time in the store. She looked up at me with her big blue eyes and my eyes started watering. She is so precious :). At the end she fell asleep again. She barely woke up when I put her back into her car seat when we drove home.

At home she was very good as well. She ate immediately and even smiled and laughed. I checked something on the computer and sat her in her swing for a bit and everything was fine. She started fussing a bit after a few minutes and I picked her up. She didn't eat a whole lot when we got home, so i decided to go lay down with her, feed her and maybe get an hour nap myself.

I woke up to a screaming baby, covered in sweat, inconsolable. She was screaming her lungs out and I felt horrible again. "Here we go" was the first thing that popped up in my head. I asked Brad to bring me the baby Tylenol and I gave her a small dose. I got out of bed and started walking around with her. This all had little to no effect. She kept screaming. I could feel her right leg kicking, but her left leg was stiff as could be. She would not move it.

I filled the bathtub with warm water and lavender baby wash and sat in it with her. Even this was not soothing, so after 5 minutes I had enough of that. I got a towel and wrapped her in it, did not even bother with putting her in a diaper. I grabbed my bath robe and walked some more around the house with her. I finally went to sit down on the couch and I let her nurse. This was apparently soothing enough for her to stop crying. She nursed for about 30 minutes and I even got a smile out of her.

Since then she has been on and off crying and sleeping, but thankfully she isn't crying as loud anymore. I can still see that she does not want to move her left leg. I cannot touch it either. I tried to massage and move it earlier, but she won't let me. It feels warm, but whenever I touch it, she will cry. So tomorrow I will try and massage it for her again and maybe play a little bit with her. I want her to move her leg, so it won't be stiff the next few days.

Anyways, it's been a busy day. I am so not looking forward to her 6 month shots, it will be 3 shots again instead of 2.